Dependance

The teachings of Jesus show what characteristics I should be covered in to be Christlike: poor in spirit, mourner, meek, merciful, pure in heart, peacemakers, the persecurted and seeking righteousness.  These traits in their purest form are only available through growing in Christ.  The “weakness” that Jesus is calling for will result in an outward “strength”.  This will come from a deeper dependance on God, resulting in less of “me” showing and more of God.  I pray that God will continue to purify me in every way.

The shame of not having other peoples needs ahead of my own is growing unbearable.  I have just told my husband that I feel cheated by having to work and not be with the kids, and that it feels like he has been rewarded by getting sick.  I don’t want to have ill will like that.  It is selfish and does not show unconditional love and acceptance.  I have also been carrying frustration from work and allowing it to change my demeanor.  I feel as if I am directly under attack, and I have no recourse.   I guess that’s what it’s all about … letting God handle it.  The “poor in spirit”.

Lord, I do pray for my thoughts and actions to be in correct alignment with you, and for my heart to long for what brings glory to you.  I pray for forgiveness for my recent actions with my husband, children and co-workers.  Please continue to teach me what it is to be Yours and I pray for You to fill me to the point that “I” am no longer.  Amen

Awe

Lord, I thank you for everything.  I pray I can show others your amazing love today, and that in some small way my actions and words can bring you glory.  Amen

Hidden Thoughts

Lord, I pray that you would search my innermost thoughts … the ones that I am unaware of until they creep up and take control.  I pray that you would reveal to me the motives that are not in line with your will and teach me how to release them to you.  I pray for your forgiveness for my selfish behavior that has been so prominent in my life and actions.  I am so aware of how unworthy I am.  I am not fit to touch your sandals, or even to be in the presence of such greatness and perfection.  I thank you for your enduring patience with me, and I do pray to grow in your image so I can bring the praise and glory to you that you deserve.  Thank you Lord Jesus for your faithfulness.  Amen

Genesis 33 – Jacob & Esaw had a reunion filled with forgiveness.  Jacob was changed by the meeting with God.  He pursues righteousness, but soon after his reconciliation with his brother, be backslides.  We are prone in our human selves to do the same thing.  Just as God wooed Jacob back, He woes us back to keep working in us to accomplish His perfect will in our lives.  When we continue to seek our Lord, we will be changed so drastically that our very identity is forever changed.

Holy Weakness

Holiness.  We can only achieve holiness through a right relationship with God.  When He dwells within us, He will perfect us and shine through … changing our actions and reactions to this world and circumstances.  Holiness is pure intentions, without ulterior motives.

Lord, I pray for your teaching on this.  I recognize my weakness in this area.  Even as I write this, my mind is split.  Father, I pray that you would search me and show me the thoughts and actions that I need to turn away from.  I pray for you to show me how to do this and that you would grance me the grace to do it.  Thank you for how amazing your love is, and I pray that my understanding of you, my love for you, my service for you would grow.  Amen